Step backFriday, January 16, 2015
I was never an important person, I was never treated like royalty but sometimes when I think I'm special I tend to get disappointed which brings sadness and depression that is hard to ignore.
For the past few months I have been feeling quite differently and it was kind of annoying how much I have change not only in my appearance but also in my perception on other things. This led me to thinking "why would I push myself into something that is not just for me". It feels like pushing myself into a pit of misunderstanding and I was choking.
I lost my motivation, the eagerness to write blogposts, to read books and the street teams I'm handling were forgotten and I became an irresponsible child, sad, very sad.
But I realized something, It was like a big ball of reality and it hit me, I realized that not everything will go the way I want them to be, I will not have everything I like, I will not experience everything I want to experience but thinking that I tried my best to be that person who seeks every chance to do what she wants is just amazing.
I posted a blogpost about my thoughts regarding the word "lucky" and I read what I wrote and thinking that I created that and I wrote that makes me cringe because I was suppose to tell people to feel lucky but I wasn't not even feeling "lucky".
Now on the brighter note, I am beginning to trust myself again, It will be easy, I will take it step by step until I become Me again.
Please do me a favor and keep smiling, forget all your worries and think about how lucky you are and don't forget to pray.